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Jone frantically came to me to apologize. The last time we met was in the dark night, with a violent storm. I locked him outside the door, and he pressed his foot against the door tightly. He asked me with a pale face: ‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Abby, what can I do to make you forgive me?’ I laughed, and smashed his head with a bowl, and then I stretched out my hand to him and said, ‘Give me 46.87 yuan, and I will forgive you.’ He was obviously stunned, and blood flowed from his forehead into his eyes, scarlet. He looked at me stupidly and asked subconsciously: ‘What…what?’ ‘46.87 yuan, ‘100 Things You Must Pay Attention to When You Go to Your Boyfriend’s House for the First Time’, give me the money for this book, we are even, and you can go.’ I think when he left in a daze with blood on his forehead and rain, he must not understand why I was obsessed with this 46.87 yuan, because every night when I tossed and turned and couldn’t sleep, I was touching my aching heart and telling myself. It must be that the book was too expensive, so I was so heartbroken and tossed and turned. 46.87 yuan is really a huge sum of money.
Such a huge sum of money, if I don’t get it back, how long will it take for me to recover from this heartache?
There is really nothing to say about what happened later. I heard a long time later that because of my incident, Jone’s mother backed off, and the relationship between the two of them eased after a year of stalemate.
Fate treats others as well as it treats me.
Because at that time, I had already given birth to Tim.
I found out that I was pregnant shortly after I broke up with Jone. Of course, I would not give birth to this child. After I knew I was pregnant, I bought abortion pills.
The hospital was too expensive, I couldn’t afford it. The abortion pills in the clinic only cost 3.5 yuan per pill, so I bought two.
The unscrupulous drug manufacturer of the unscrupulous clinic, I don’t know if the medicine was expired, I had a period for three days, and Tim stubbornly stayed in my uterus. On the last day, I lay in bed and cried all day, and finally, late at night, I decided to give birth to him.
Six years later, Abby will definitely curse Abby for making this decision, because this decision will make her live a life worse than death in the next six years.
But I forgive her, forgive the isolated, lonely, panic-stricken, and miserable Abby. She loves Jone. Although this man has caused her great harm, those good acting skills really existed, those heartbeats really existed, and those warmth really existed.
She was overwhelmed by the love above in an instant. In an instant, she wanted to have her own home, something that belongs to her, and a family that can always accompany her. I understand her and forgive her.
I really don’t want to be alone anymore.
I completed my graduation defense while pregnant, and I returned to the original orphanage when I was about to give birth.
The director was not surprised to see me with a big belly. My gray hair trembled in the wind, and finally sighed.
When I was in junior high school, I smashed the head of the male owner who adopted me and wanted to rape me. The dean went to the police station to redeem me. I was beaten by the male owner’s wife and stood in the light of the police station in dishevel. I was exposed. Especially this woman pulled my hair and slandered me for deliberately seducing her husband. I just felt ashamed, but I still held my breath and said nothing.
I didn’t start crying until the dean came. She protected me behind her and apologized to the woman timidly.
When we finally made peace and were about to leave, the woman pointed at me and cursed: ‘You are a bad little devil. You will definitely get pregnant before marriage in the future and let men play with you enough and then abandon you. You are a vixen who has no self-respect and no self-love.
‘ What I thought at the time was: I won’t do that. I must study hard, get into the best school, have the best job, and make the most money.
